Friends with Benefits

Friends with benefits... hmmm, what does that really mean?!
Would that be a good thing? Or would that be a dead end?

It's just so frustrating and confusing to be told you'd be better of this way...And that you'll be leaving everything to a bigoted woman I'd like to call "FATE"...

And what is it up with guys telling you what's good for you... I mean, am I paying them to think for me?! I am fully capable of knowing what I want and thinking for myself, thank you very much!

Benefits.... what exactly have you given me?! aside from all those half-meant things and heartache?! if that's what benefits are... then you're more twisted than the government... SSS and tax benefits, yeah right!!!

What to do... what to do...

It's so hard to move on.... Cause I don't want to move on, too... There's something bout words said that makes you go back even though you're going forward....

And the fact that you see each other and talk.... It's really not helping...












I'm blabbering away... this is what you get from not talking to anyone about what you feel... I don't think I have real friends anymore... They're either going away or just not there...
I am thankful for having new friends... but I always think that somehow, in a month or two, they'll be leaving again... So, I guess it's better to just shut up...